As I sit here watching the funeral of George Floyd Born: 14 October 1973, Fayetteville, North Carolina, the United States who Died: 25 May 2020, in Minneapolis, Minnesota also the birthplace of Prince. I feel he knew the revolution would start here again. As I think of all of the people like Breanna Taylor, Ahmad Arbery, Shukri Abdi, Iyad Hallak and let's not forget Leonard Peltier. It has taken another week to deal with more bad news.
A week later another death at the hands of police. Our black brothers still feel the need to run or potentially lose their lives. Why is this a trend in 2020? I am tired of being black/brown women worrying about myself, my sisters and our men.
Being a Strong Black Brown Women
The blood that runs through my veins has a little of all of the above angles. According to the saying one drop of black makes you black. Aren't we all African then. Yet, from my personal experience of being a mixed-race person claiming my heritage comes with issues, judgements, and internal issues within our communities and tribes. However, my native cousins all showed me, love, and accepted me because, in our eyes, we are all brown.
This is the love that needs to shine through now. Why was it essential that American Indians joined the protests in solidarity with African Americans? Because their presence underscores Minneapolis's ongoing hostilities against indigenous people and people of colour and highlights the long history of weaponized state violence against American Indians too.
I feel that is were my rebel side comes from, but I am tired of fighting and wishing to be accepted in this thing called life. My own family is always worried about our men. The worrying about our girls was that someone taking advantage of us and other things that are for another essay. Yet, police and brutality and lack of investigation when we are murdered is another aspect I am tired of. Another reason I am tired of being black/brown women.
Those who are calling for justice are echoing similar calls from the era of the civil rights movements. It was police brutality against native people in the Twin Cities that led to the creation of the American Indian Movement in 1968. AIM is most famous — or infamous — for its public demonstrations.
I'm tired of being a strong black-brown women
As women of colour, we have so many battles to fight. Tribes to choose from and we have to learn how to hold your own when you're the only one in the room. I suppose we always have to defend ourselves and fight to be in the room. In today's world, it can be as stupid as how many likes you have then real content creation.
Always asked because of my skin colour, what are you? Sometimes replying human did no cut it. People still want to know what ethnicity I am. I have gotten a DNA test to identify. Yet, being black and brown makes me proud, regardless of the outcome.
Now I feel I have to educate on difference and brotherly and sisterly love because I am tired of watching the news and seeing all the non-love for black and brown people. Dealing with Systemic Racism is tiring, and I cannot believe that we are still dealing with this during a pandemic and in 2020.
Tired of worrying about our brothers
Being the only girl between three boys gave me a princess complex. I love my brother's blood or homeboy that treated me like a sister, not their next conquest. I feel I have to fight for them too. Growing up when your brothers are 6ft tall and brown, a sisters job was to keep them out of trouble and wait up for them to walk in the door after midnight. Once a joke by Richard Pryor on his record. Now an interlude in a hip hop song where he talks about what times black men have to be in the house.
When you work in Fashion, you also have to look out for them too. Ride or die chick here just learned to look out for my boys and they will look out for you too. In Fashion for one black and brown men look out for sisters more then we look at for each other. This subject is another element of the black experience that I am tired of, Black and Brown women not supporting each other.
I'm tired of being called a white girl
I'm tired of being called a white girl by black women because I'm educated and didn't grow up in the hood. I have been called a white girl all my life. I guess that is why I act ghetto, just to be down. We black and brown sisters suffer from feeling there can only be one of us, which divides us even further. Then we also separate ourselves with colourism issues we need to fix through healing ourselves. I'm tired of not being accepted by people in Fashion because I'm not black enough or work for Vogue.
I'm tired of being looked at as a sexual beast
Now don't get me wrong, I love hip hop. Yet, now I have thought more in depth about the lyrics that artist are singing and we dance too. That degrade women, and now little girls want to be Tiktok stars and strippers.
Which asks me what are we teaching our sisters? These images are tiring, and I hope we return to worshipping mothers of nations. I'm tired of having to educate people about black culture. I'm tired of black music artist teaching out daughters hoeing, and stripping is a career path.
What I am Proud of
I am proud of being me. I am grateful for my voice and intellects. The reasons why I continue to do what I do, ask questions and think for myself. This is why I created the Style Cartel online magazine to Empower Women like me. We might not reach everyone, but we are still striving.
Because we are tired of brown people dying. Martyr's for the revolution of human rights for people around the world. What can we do? My suggestion is to return to the divine feminine a return to loving and respecting mother nature and her plan for us. Women will save the world because we give life, so now we have to heal the womb.
The universe as a plan for us and we strive to share it. It is time to watch some comedy to ease the pain and trauma. And when our message is trending, then all the hard work, our team, has done will shine bright like a diamond. We want to remind people of colour that we are Queens and Kings and belong. Let us know if you think we are shining give us a thumbs up.